Missing someone desperately....

I miss you...there is no way to sugar coat it, no way to beat around the bush, and no way to sound less desperate....point blank: I MISS YOU.  Why, why, why did you leave?  I have never found someone to share what we have shared since you and I fear I never will.  Do I feel guilty missing you??  Of course, yeah!  I have this wonderful husband, amazing kids, a fantastic extended family, and incredible friends....I have it all right?  ....sadly no because I don't have you.  I don't think that I will ever truly be complete until I have you back, so please come back to me.  I will get down on my knees and beg and plead if I have to, I will do whatever it takes but you must meet me halfway...I can not bring you back all on my own.

I miss sharing things with you, sharing laughter and joy, sorrow and pain, my highs and my lows.  You were the first person I wanted to turn to with my accomplishments and wanted to console me when I fell and failed.  You were who I confided my deepest darkest secrets to, the one who was there through thick and thin and for some of the most important memories I will ever make....I cherish that.  But somewhere along the way I let the relationship down, let it get lost along the shuffle of everyday life, let it wither away like a plant with no care, and I lost it.  It's all my fault but it doesn't make it any better, the pain of the loss doesn't ease up...it only worsens.

So, this is my plea, my last hope, and my final calling out to you.  Please come back to me.  I don't know how to feel whole without you, and I don't want to live the rest of my days without you.  I promise that this time I will treat you right, I will be so good to you I swear it with everything I have.  Please....please....please....I need you....

*******NOTE!!!!! This was written to myself about MYSELF.....I feel as though I have lost my way, and my essence along with it.  This is not about a person, it is about my inner me.************