Happy Birthday to ME! :-D

Blue Heaven Martini
30th B-day

Today is my 30th birthday, the big 3-OH!  I must admit that I was dreading this birthday, and even had a bout of depression leading up to it.  No, not because I was terrified to leave my 20's, but because I had convinced myself that 30 was some momentous milestone that meant I was really an adult and needed to have something  amazing to show for it.  I didn't feel like I had accomplished anything with my life; I didn't have some incredible important job, didn't have a sprawling mansion, loads of money, and wasn't living in the laps of luxury.  And while it seems incredibly silly now, I did let that idea get the best of me and it really took its toll on me.

Then, through the kind words of friends and family, I finally woke up and realized that I had so much more than what I thought I needed to have.  I have a wonderful husband, and 2 beautiful children.  I have an immensely important job as mommy and wife that I should be ridiculously proud of.  I have a simple home that suits my and my families needs and gives us the stage to so many beautiful memories.  And I am rich in love for and from some pretty amazing people I am blessed to call family and friends.  I would say that when you look at my life in that light I have succeeded and surpassed the "goals" and "requirements" that I had ever set forth for myself.

So, to celebrate my "milestone" birthday, I am focusing on the things that matter and learning to enjoy life every minute from exactly where I am at the time.  I am making a promise to myself to get back to writing, and fulfilling the goals and dreams I had pushed to the side in the ill placed idea that they weren't "worthy" or "important".  Through this blog I hope to reveal all of me; the good, bad, ugly, beautiful, crazy, neurotic, ambitious, fun-loving me!  I hope that you will come to rely on this blog for entertainment and solace.  I look forward to sharing my bit of imperfections with you!